“They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.”
My New Year’s Resolution’s have traditionally seen spectacular successes that made the whole exercise worth it – and a few utter failures which are recidivist in nature.
In focusing on the failure, I wonder at why I just don’t get it done. Much of it, I think, has to do with work. The new semester begins and I am so traumatized in terms of trying to get a handle on my classes that three months pass before I can even contemplate my own life. I am in “survival” mode.
But that does not entirely let me off the hook. For example, I could do something about my lunch situation at work that would not take huge amount of time and effort – and yet I don’t. I could get incorporated into the tennis scene here in Ventura – but I don’t. Why?
Is it the ruts of habit and convention that can run so deep in our lives? Is that the problem? We just continue to do what we have always done? Perhaps. But I also think fear plays a role. “Taking a new step, uttering a new word, is what people fear most,” claimed Fyodor Dostoyevsky. Combine this fear of the new with the ingrained routine of habit and one encounters a difficult obstacle to changing behavior.
At any rate, I have my new list of New Year’s Resolutions for 2008 posted. We shall see how it goes.
Happy New Year everyone!
“Taking a new step, uttering a new word, is what people fear most.”